What does honesty mean...

I trusted you, thought you are honest, you care etc.

After everything, you have said the past few days, I have come to realize, things you had said to me maybe were not true anymore. Your words indirectly told me "you can't get me ...... so it's your fault, I will do this and you shouldn't think about me" I thought you were telling me before, you are doing things for me and us.

After you didn't send me itinerary and even after me asking, I didn't know what to think. You made a face when I asked twice. I had to ask every details and after you didn't bother to write, when you were leaving, when you landed SEA, left or when you reached HI. What am I supposed to think?

Whole day waited, I finally wrote to you and your response was "just reached and settling in, will write later ". If you really cared, first thing, you would have done was, called to say "I have reached, will talk to you later". That would have made new feel better, unfortunately it's just me who's thinking that way. These might be little little things, but little things make difference, they also make you feel like, someone cares. 

I am disappointed and feel sad about the whole thing, I am telling myself to be strong,  it's hard especially when everything falls apart the same time.