Mind is crazy, it can think about so many good things and at times, it can think of things you do not want it to, and yet you can't control it. It gets hard the most when you want to stop thinking about something and the thought keeps running and running, over and over in your mind. You start to sometimes feel miserable with it, you tell yourself, omg please get out of my mind. Don't bother me please please.
So, that's when I can't help and I start writing here whatever it is. I let the fingers type whatever it wants to and this is how I let my mind release all my feelings, all those unnecessary thoughts. Last night, once again I had the hard time with sleep. I had some thoughts which wouldn't go away at all. I woke up with a massive headache for the second day in a row.
I was awake from too early, when I didn't have to be. I couln't sleep, couldn't stop thinking so I finally said to myself, get up. I woke up, too shower, too steam and headache felt a bit better. Then it was time to get ready and head to the Meditation Center. It was a waste of time, complete waste of time. I haven't never felt like getting out of a place that badly like today.
I decided to go to the Vietnamese Temple as its Buddha Jayanti, I reached there, sat there for a few minutes, tried to get some peace in my mind. As I sad there something happened to me, I couldn't control myself, I found myself dropping t_ _ _ _, it was strange.
I got back to my car and same thing happened, I couldn't control. Finally, I decided to come and make something to eat and sit down and watch tv. Its nice and warm outside, I am just here sitting in front of the TV, typing this entry.
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