Not sure how long I will be writing about this.

Hopefully, not too long as its not fun and its not going to change anything. Its just going to hurt but, sometimes writing also helps how I am feeling.

Today I woke up, got fresh, then went to the Spin class, where I kinda pulled my back muscle, boy that hurt really bad. After the gym, came home, took shower and ate some food and was ready to head to the Spa Party. It was nice, but my heart was asking something and I knew something is missing. On the way back, I drove to Maple Grove to check out more fashion jewelry and also went inside DSW. I didn't purchase anything.

While driving back, this time went to Ulta, yes more driving. I didn't find what I was looking for in Ulta nor Target. So, I came home, marinated Salmon and broiled it. While Salmon was getting broiled, I made gwacamole, and it was tasty.

I sat in front of the TV and ate. I also talked to babu and Pau. With all these things, my heart and was mind wasn't satisfied. I did bunch of stuff yet, I knew I am feeling there is something missing in my day and my life. Is the feeling going to fade away soon ? This is a bit sad, but at this point, its staying with me.

I was starting to think, maybe this is it, I will be myself and you know. Then I met you, I started dreaming about all those things with you and then you disappeared and left me feeling hurt. Everytime the thought comes to me, I tell myself, stop thinking but my mind goes back to it again and again. It doesn't help me but just bothers me over and over. I wish you understand/understood my feelings. I thought you did, but after all this, I have to think, you didn't at all.