No matter what, I will always feel sad and bad about this whole thing. I will always remember that you disrespected me. And yet unfortunately, I might always miss the Chemistry between us, I will always remember what we talked about and the times we spent together.
I do wish sometimes I want this memory to be gone from my mind soon, so that it won't hurt so much, but it doesn't work like that. My friends and family tell me, time will heal, it will go away. I know, some memories always stay in mind. It hurt, it hurts and it might always hurt.
The thought makes me feel emotional, I wish it was easy as you said 'keep it low'. Honestly, I don't know what that means. When you like someone, when you want to be with someone, you don't say or put a boundry, I am only going to like, love, care about someone only like 20% or 50% or 75%.
When you do with clean mind and heart, you just do, as much as you can, You don't think about how I can use this person, how to get more out of this person. All you think about is, how to be happy together, how to do all the things together for togetherness.
Unfortunately, these are just words, that will just go over your head. I still wish things were different. All this time, I said, 'time will tell' and time definitely showed. Its sad but its the fact.
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