I have been wanting to go there and finally made it. It has changed quite a bit and it was nice to be there finally after almost three years. I wish it was a bit quieter, but I was proud of myself that I made it there and I did what I wanted to.
I wish I can go there often until I find some peace. I have never felt like this for this long, its tough. Do I deserve this really? It feels like things like this happens to me often, over and over. The past few years have been so tough. I brought myself up with so much effort and now I have sorta reached in that very situation sort of. It feels bad and I feel sorry for myself at this point. I want to be me again, the one smiles always, happy from inside.
Sometimes I feel like I have forgotten to smile. We say life is full of ups and downs. but its starting to feel like, my life is full of downs and no ups to be seen far far away. I am very positive, yet with the things are going making me feel the way. As Kashme said, I hope this is temporary and will be over soon.
Hopeful and will stay hopeful for some good things in the upcoming days.....
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